CLIQUES. X X


from semester one till now, which is the second semester I still have problems adapting with my group of 'girlfriends'. I know this is the real world, the reality that everyone said. MCKL had been treated me well in the area of friends and cliques, nobody care where you come from, which school you are from and all the other material sh't. All everyone cares about is you being you. being yourself. in fact, that time was the most happy time and joyful time i had, even my mum told me : "you seem to be really happy when you're in MCKL". well, true indeed.

Some people said I am overly protected by the lovely, kind, peaceful environment and I dont know what the real world, real people look like. now, now i know. only small issues that these people had made, enough to let me be heartbroken. Maybe is me, I expected more that this, a more deeper friendships. Friends that care for you when you are in deep sh'ts, and simple things like eating good food. I've been telling myself to give it more time to know each other maybe things will get better.

The only thing I can do right now is to trust God and let Him lead me. well, I have faith that things will get better that I will get along with them, or even make new friends in my studies in Sunway.

to those who read this post, pray for me aites :) I really need breakthrough in this area.


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