Blessed Little Things

1. There will be several days that you daydream about stepping in front of a city bus. Don’t. It will not be beautiful. It will not be brave. It will be selfish. It will be broken. Your mother will cry. 2. Don’t write for him. Write for you. Write for others like you. Write so the girl that thinks about stepping in front of public transportation doesn’t. Don’t be selfish. 3. When you will yourself to sleep and it doesn’t come- get up. It doesn’t matter that it’s 3 am. There will be other 3 am’s. Take a shower. Take two. Wash him out of your hair. Write a poem. Read the same book you’ve read 202 times again. The 203rd time might tell you something different. Don’t stay in bed- you will think about the bus again. 4. Don’t kiss him because he’s broken. Don’t kiss him because his laughter never reaches his eyes. Don’t try and fix him. Fix yourself first. Be selfish. He can’t save you. 5. Date yourself. Take yourself out to eat. Don’t share your popcorn at the movies with anyone. S...

cool kids dont go for parties on saturday night, we go YOUTH SERVICE. hipster people *doublepeace* the only youth service that have such rough and fun ice breaker. jooli sang "i will follow you " for worship, reminds me of YES :3 so this is what the leaders gonna do to you if you forget your bible XD I missed the real proposal from both of them. so a fake Judaism wedding will be good. and we had video shoot earlier in the afternoon  for youth sunday.  STAY TUNED :) i was brought up with saturday's youth service since i reached my teenage.This is the place that i built my knowledge and spiritual foundation with God. I didnt realize it until i leave my comfort zone and when i faced troubled times.i did not fall so easily instead Ps Elijah preaching's will suddenly appear in my mind and naturally you know what to do.God is so miraculous right? HEH. So a part of who I am today comes from here. Goodnight XOXO

i think this will be more like a confession and maybe a testimony :P so it started from my mum resignation from the china company that she works for 2 years. So basically my mum's salary is our financial source and this sudden change actually put us to have financial difficulties. For the first few days i ACTED really strong and believes God will provide and not forsake us. But this positive thinking did not last after a few days. THEN.. I transformed myself into another girl..well a rebellious daughter. Keeping everything to myself and even argued alot with my mum. most importantly, i distant myself away from God . Refuse to think about Him and do devotion. ---is a form of running away from Him.It was because of disappointments and all negative thoughts planting in my mind. Many times my mum called me to join her for quiet time...i ignored her or i quietly slipped away. I knew it wasnt right, i felt like i m not a faithful christian anymore but i choose to ignore  and not th...