daily devotion #2

i think this will be more like a confession and maybe a testimony :P

so it started from my mum resignation from the china company that she works for 2 years. So basically my mum's salary is our financial source and this sudden change actually put us to have financial difficulties. For the first few days i ACTED really strong and believes God will provide and not forsake us. But this positive thinking did not last after a few days.

THEN..

I transformed myself into another girl..well a rebellious daughter. Keeping everything to myself and even argued alot with my mum. most importantly, i distant myself away from God . Refuse to think about Him and do devotion. ---is a form of running away from Him.It was because of disappointments and all negative thoughts planting in my mind. Many times my mum called me to join her for quiet time...i ignored her or i quietly slipped away. I knew it wasnt right, i felt like i m not a faithful christian anymore but i choose to ignore  and not think about God.

and Finally today my mum actually made me sit down, held my hand tight , kept my head straight and waited for me to pray for her. I got no choice but to open my mouth and pray. Tears rolled down immediately after my first sentence and it got worse after that, i felt so bad running away from him. But the strong sense of God presence, comforts me throughout the prayer. it was soo good to be back in His mist, feeling His love.

Sometimes we tend to slack and turned our head away from God. Dont get all troubled and depressed by your own, go back to God. His arms is always open for us even after we ran away from Him. HE STILL WANTS US. He will not leave us nor forsake us.
 and i faith in the Lord that He will bring me and mum through this hard time.




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