Blessed Little Things

但泪水落雨下，好像天就快跨， 我想念亲人想念朋友只身在天涯。  泪水落雨下，会家的路更滑。 我，累了。

Job 11:13-20 "Yet if you devote your heart to him and stretch out your hands to him, if you put away the sin that is in your hand and allow no evil to dwell in your tent, then you'll lift up your face without shame; you'll surely stand firm without fear. You will surely forget your trouble,recalling it only as waters gone by. Life will be brighter than noonday and darkness will become like morning . You'll be secure, because there is hope; you'll look about you and take rest in safety. You'll lie down, with no one to make you afraid and many will court your favor. But the eyes of the wicked will fail and escape will elude them; their hope will become dying gasp.  God pls forgive me. feeling like piece of shit now. Pick me up, dont leave me Lord.

1. There will be several days that you daydream about stepping in front of a city bus. Don’t. It will not be beautiful. It will not be brave. It will be selfish. It will be broken. Your mother will cry. 2. Don’t write for him. Write for you. Write for others like you. Write so the girl that thinks about stepping in front of public transportation doesn’t. Don’t be selfish. 3. When you will yourself to sleep and it doesn’t come- get up. It doesn’t matter that it’s 3 am. There will be other 3 am’s. Take a shower. Take two. Wash him out of your hair. Write a poem. Read the same book you’ve read 202 times again. The 203rd time might tell you something different. Don’t stay in bed- you will think about the bus again. 4. Don’t kiss him because he’s broken. Don’t kiss him because his laughter never reaches his eyes. Don’t try and fix him. Fix yourself first. Be selfish. He can’t save you. 5. Date yourself. Take yourself out to eat. Don’t share your popcorn at the movies with anyone. S...

cool kids dont go for parties on saturday night, we go YOUTH SERVICE. hipster people *doublepeace* the only youth service that have such rough and fun ice breaker. jooli sang "i will follow you " for worship, reminds me of YES :3 so this is what the leaders gonna do to you if you forget your bible XD I missed the real proposal from both of them. so a fake Judaism wedding will be good. and we had video shoot earlier in the afternoon  for youth sunday.  STAY TUNED :) i was brought up with saturday's youth service since i reached my teenage.This is the place that i built my knowledge and spiritual foundation with God. I didnt realize it until i leave my comfort zone and when i faced troubled times.i did not fall so easily instead Ps Elijah preaching's will suddenly appear in my mind and naturally you know what to do.God is so miraculous right? HEH. So a part of who I am today comes from here. Goodnight XOXO

i think this will be more like a confession and maybe a testimony :P so it started from my mum resignation from the china company that she works for 2 years. So basically my mum's salary is our financial source and this sudden change actually put us to have financial difficulties. For the first few days i ACTED really strong and believes God will provide and not forsake us. But this positive thinking did not last after a few days. THEN.. I transformed myself into another girl..well a rebellious daughter. Keeping everything to myself and even argued alot with my mum. most importantly, i distant myself away from God . Refuse to think about Him and do devotion. ---is a form of running away from Him.It was because of disappointments and all negative thoughts planting in my mind. Many times my mum called me to join her for quiet time...i ignored her or i quietly slipped away. I knew it wasnt right, i felt like i m not a faithful christian anymore but i choose to ignore  and not th...

2 Corinthians 2:10-11 10. Anyone you forgive, I also forgive. And what I've forgiven- if there was anything to forgive-I have forgiven in the sight of Christ sake,11 in order that Satan might not outwit us. For we are not unaware of his schemes. I was feeling so hopeless, lifeless earlier on today. i felt like things arent going my way. i mean things arent going the RIGHT way. I feel so tired to live my life like this. I m going through so much things that i shouldnt have known at my age. The people that i've to live with now have only ONLY money in their mind. and Status is the power. they dont care what it takes to reach achievements. i felt so discourage by them, there's no meaning to life if we lead a life like this. i know, i know bigger things are yet to come. bigger storms are yet to meet. but when the Lord says: anyone you forgive, i also forgive...immediately i feel relieved. i should stop hating the people around me and get my passion to move on. FORGIVE...

my life have been entirely changing and changing since SPM. went college for a year and it went well. good friends, good memories. at that time everything seems so good, i dont need to worry about anything anything because everything is provided and arranged properly for me.  i felt so comfortable about the things around me until i have problems adapting back in my hometown after i graduated.  i guess u will be thinking... : you gonna be kidding me? ipoh is your hometown pls. you born there hello?!  but after weeks, it all went well. BUT with one question in mind that keep me thinking 24/7.  soo. you have finished your college, what you gonna do next viv? ohyes. This is hard. I must think well, filter well and most of all listen what the Lord trying to tell me about my future. and of course it took me months to thought about it. CHECKED.. During this transition period, i actually made plans on what i should do. so here it goes: learn to drive and get...

is an beautiful letter that my friend gave me during YES. i did not read it until last week...and it touch my heart. i would like to share this letter to everyone so that u guys will be bless toooo <3 My darling, My daughter… How are you, My beautiful child? I have missed you, I’ve been wondering where you have been. I feel as though I have spent so long watching you, being there for you, just waiting for you to notice Me. You often feel that in a crowded room; you’re alone.. Don’t you notice me at the back of the room, as you dance about in your world? I’m watching you from a distance, from where you left Me when you pushed Me to the side, hid My word in your backpack,  closed the pages of your journal when someone asked what you were writing; for fear of what others might think of Me, your Father. I’m still here, sometimes I see you looking for Me, at the end of the day - when everyone else has gone home, and you’re laying in your bed, staring out the window. Whe...

hello peeps.  so this is my 2nd post on this blog. which is 3 months later after the 1st post. *viv, you are an efficient blogger* basically after YES ( Youth Enrichment School) on January, I went back Ipoh for good. i planned to find a job and chill with my fellow youths in my home church. soooo before i even manage to find a job, i joined the annual youth camp from my home church. DC X3 so i had great and fun times with my youths tho they are younger than me! My YES group :) C TEAM (christ team) finally...i found a job! i was like YES! *cheering for joy* it aint easy to find part time job in ipoh :O so i settled down working in ann's mummy kinder.  Unfortunately, on my 2nd day of work I got into an car accident. :( it was horrible. my hands were literally shaking and my heartbeat was pumping so fast when i knocked down a motorcyclist. thank God that he didnt have any severe injuries. my mind went blanked and i cant think straight. and the following weeks ...

I have not been posting any post in my previous blog for the past six months because the blog was so messed up. the pictures and blog posts were here and there.EVERYWHERE! That's why i m creating a new blog to start off 2013! back track to 2012... JANUARY  a freshmen is Methodist College Kuala Lumpur. FEBRUARY finally settled into the hostel and manage to join at super cool church in kl. GTPJ RAWKS. went orientation prom in JW Marriot and heeello prom king.  MARCH Assignments! and camwhoring all the wayyyyyyy! APRIL  found my lovelies <3 true friends that encourage u through thick and thin. MAY   blahblahblah JUNE sem break! cell multiplication in kl and went penang with the ipoh cellies!                                      JULY BGR camp *winks winks* and Masquerade partyeeeee! AUGU...